Dear General Deborah,
I am doing well, thank God! I pray that you are keeping well also. I am so happy to have my laptop back. Even though it was a bit of a challenge for me to do without my Internet or power for my laptop, I believe that it was a blessing in disguise because I got some much needed reading done from my box that you and your husband sent for me. The first literature I read from cover to cover was “The Necks of Our Enemies”. That reading was powerful. I needed that jolt from the Spirit of God. I haven’t read all the booklets, but I think that is my favorite of them all! Thank you, again, for sharing your booklets with me.
As I go about my daily activities, the fear of the Lord is constantly before my mind’s and heart’s eye. It is good for me to remember always so that I do not live carelessly. I prayed to God today to please keep my vessel clean because I do not want to become demonized. I see so many people here who are puffed up and cruel. I prayed to God today not to let me become blinded and live callously before Him and towards others I meet.
Overall, my soul is doing very well. That literature really gave me a kick in the pants from God! I felt like that was written just for me (this may seem self-centered, and it is, but I mean the reading was just chop after chop at my carnality! I loved it!). It sure woke me up and helped me to start counting my blessings before God and praying to Him with a sincere heart. I feel refreshed. You know what I think happened in the spiritual realm: I think that I accumulated too much “fat” and “guck” of carnality. I absorbed that stuff from around me. Maybe I even generated some of it from my heart. The thing is that the Word of the Spirit just exposed it and shined a laser light in those dark places burning out all that filth. Believe it or not, even though I feel refreshed, I am still confused about the next step God has for me. The difference is that now I have peace in my heart because I confessed to God my sins once that light came shining through, and I saw what I had let happen to my walk with Jesus and my soul.
So, I am well, and I pray that I can stay focused on Jesus alone as the days go by. I pray that you and the Lord’s community are doing well. Thank you, again, for your prayers and encouragement. They mean a lot to me.
Love,
Jamie
On Tue, Feb 12, 2013 at 3:32 PM, DG <livingword@aggressivechristianity.net> wrote:
Dear Jamie,
Pray this finds you doing well in your daily existence and hopefully in your relationship
to the Master. Praise God that we are privileged to live for Him in this life, and be in His
mercies. The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom and that fear needs to be predominant in
every area of our lives. Church actually ruins people for fearing God since ministers no longer
preach hell fire, damnation, repentance, and the penalty of sin, which is death. So people do
not fear God, they imagine that God is their errand boy obligated to answer their every whim and lust.
But the Lord is ingraining into us the need to live continually in the fear of Him for He alone is
our life. Okay hope you got connected again today and will communicate as the Lord leads.
Love and prayers, Gen. Deborah
Dear General Deborah,
Greetings in Jesus name. Thank you for your encouraging words. I did not go to work today, as I had already decided, so I do believe that I am in the will of the Lord for not going in to work. Well, indeed, one thing is certain, Jesus means business. He is not joking around when He says He wants all, and I repeat it to myself all day long that Jesus will get all of me from now onward. I do feel as if I am preparing for my funeral. I see all around me the crumbling of what I thought was my life. It is falling away in chunks. I am not joyful about my death, but I am not sad either. I am just ready to give Jesus all.
I have been busy about operation evacuation today. I am smiling to myself now because I was trying not to bustle about or think too much so as not to send you any bad spiritual waves. I am feeling good though, a little nervous, but resolved and settled. I am beginning to understand that to walk with Jesus is truly a personal decision. The decision can only be made deep within a given individual, no one can force or chide or manipulate anybody into walking with Jesus. It is an intensely personal decision. Each of us must say yes to or no to Jesus’ call. A man’s motives lie deep down in his heart, far away from detection of the human eye, and sometimes from detection of even the mind of that man. Isn’t that something? You know what vision I see all the time? I see me standing at a doorway, I can see myself from the back (I cannot see my face), beyond the doorway is an intensely bright, white light but I can’t see what is beyond the door in the light, and the room or area from which I am heading is very dark, especially in comparison to the light beyond the doorway; in fact, the light only makes the darkness seem even more dark. In the vision, I am facing and standing right in this doorway of light, and just about to step through it. That is what I keep seeing. What I see always stops right there with me in the doorway.
I was thinking about Lot’s wife today too. I know why she looked back. For some reason, people get attached to the most gruesome circumstances, and even if the new way offered is better or soul-saving, there is almost always some hesitation. It would have been better for Lot and myself never to have set up home in the places that we chose to, because in the end it is not worth the sick attachment that comes along with the exposure to such lewd lifestyles. I was drawn to NY just like Lot was drawn to Sodom and Gomorrah. Nobody put us where we were, we chose to live and stay there in the first place. And believe it or not, I feel my flesh tugging me, telling me that this filthy place is my home. I tell it to shut up!! It is so strange how I got attached to such a filthy place like this. I should be running out of here doing cartwheels. Ha! But even though I am not doing cartwheels out of here, I am committed to serving Jesus, and I understand what I am doing in the sense that I am looking forward to being totally possessed by Jesus Christ. No more half here and half there like a whore, to get spewed out of God’s mouth. So I am continuing to pray that Gad has His perfect way this week and onward.
I should be done packing and doing everything by tomorrow or Wednesday evening Lord’s willing. Then I call UPS to get the few boxes, and then wait to cross over on Saturday. Praise the name of the Lord for making a way out of here and into Him. I am not looking back. Once UPS comes to get the remaining boxes, then I will let you know. I may pack my laptop Wednesday evening too, but I will let you know when I pack this laptop up in a box.
Otherwise than that, I am continuing to keep my eyes on Jesus only. I pray that you are having a blessed day in Jesus name. Thank you for all your prayers and encouragement.
Love,
Jamie
On Mon, May 6, 2013 at 8:35 AM, DG <livingword@aggressivechristianity.net> wrote:
Dear Jamie,
Greetings in the name of Jesus, may you have this day what you are meant to
receive from Him, the one we love and adore. It is good when the Lord shows
us up for what we are in our beastly carnality that we do not trust self but
rather have our confidence in the Lord. Many Christians refuse the inward working
and prefer to trust in self, rather than the Lord. But the truth of it is if we do not let
Him have His way with the inward work then we are only shells with no real substance
inside that is His life.
That is why modern Christianity for the most part rings hollow, because men and women refuse to
allow the Lord to drive out the sins, the works of darkness, that are inherent in the flesh. So the
encouragement is this, let Jesus have His way in you that you can be found acceptable unto Him
as a vessel of honor, rather than dishonor.
He the Lord Jesus was telling us this day about how important it is to allow ourselves to be used
for honorable purposes by learning to restrict our carnality and requiring the beast to obey the Lord
rather than dragging the Lord through the indulgence of the flesh.
He said why should we cater to that which we are meant to reckon to be dead? Praise God keep on
letting the Lord’s Spirit have the way that the Lord intends that the inward work goes on in your life.
Have a nice day, are you busy about the operation evacuation today? Love and prayers, Gen. Deborah
Dear General Deborah,
Greetings in the name of Jesus Christ! What a sad story of missed Salvation! I am reading Hebrews right now (following my Bible study that God commanded me to do on findng out what pleases Him in His Word), and I read two nights ago where the writer was saying if we turn down a grace so great as that of Jesus Christ and refuse the sacrifice that He made on the cross to redeem us, how then can we face the resulting wrath of God? (This is my paraphrase of my reading). This is so true! You know, when I think about how much light God has given me about who He is, I tremble at the thought of falling away from the faith or failing God. Can you imagine what it is like to not have a way to get to God? Well I now all too well how it feels to want God and feel that vast chasm between me and Him! It is awful! So I can imagine the great separation that that man felt when he was on his death bed. He really abused God, and I know all too well how angry and distant God can get when He is stirred up by our abuse. When God removes His presence, it is a form of death if you ask me–what suffering and agony! I am sorry to hear that he let His Salvation slip away. This is a precise example of what the Hebrew writer must have been trying to convey.
I think I know the passage you are referring to in the KJV, and Paul also posed a question something to the effect of, “You ran well. Who hindered you?” and he also spoke about the fact that we cannot get the prize of eternal life unless we finish the race. That is why I will do anything God tells me because He has revealed too much to me for me to be piddling around. It is a hard reality. And in the Bible somewhere else, it said that those who came to the knowledge of Jesus Christ and then turn away will be punished more severely (beaten with more stripes than a servant who had no knowledge; salted with the salt that they lost and burned in the fire of hell). And I noticed that in Revelations that God said he will spew the lukewarm out of His mouth. To me, this seems like a special kind of punishment for people who know of Jesus but choose to be indifferent to Christ or refuse to conform their life in submission to Christ. No wonder God wants 100% or nothing. When I consider what Christ did on the cross, how can I expect to just throw 10% in a church basket or pan and then go home and thats the end of my contribution and thanksgiving to God? These are heavy matters to God.
Believe it or not, I started out today feeling a little discouraged for some reason, but my spirit was revived after reading about Salvation on the train ride to work. So I am back to normal (which is constantly giving thanks to God). Thats the kind of normalness I like in my bones.
I pray that you and the Lord’s community also have a blessed day. There is so much for us to give God thanks for.
Love,
Jamie
On Fri, Apr 19, 2013 at 4:10 AM, DG <livingword@aggressivechristianity.net> wrote:
Dear Jamie,
Praise God from whom comes our life. I have been reading from a book about dying testimonies
of people who are saved and unsaved. I have read it before but now it makes way more sense
about many of the unsaved who literally miss their day of visitation from the Lord, do not repent
then try for “death bed repentance” but cannot get through to God. I remember one man who used
to be with us, then backslid, made up all kinds of lies against us, sided with witchcraft and did
the work of the devil to destroy us. Then when years later after he had been in prison, and got out,
I worked with him via telephone and letter, then he left where he was staying to go on a binge (he turned
into quite a drunkard) and that was all I heard from him. Then when he was dying of the usual, liver failure,
etc. he made contact. This time I coached him to return to God, told him I would accept him here and we
could all minister to him and perhaps he could get healed and live for God again. He plainly confessed to
me, that he could not get through to God, that he had abused God one too many times and that his number
was up. He died shortly thereafter went into a coma and died that way in the hospital in California.
Made me so sick, the horror of a death like that then facing eternity in hell. You wonder how many people
refuse the Holy Spirit beckoning, pleading, with them, only to end in hell for resisting God.
Of course I don’t have a lot of time to read but I grab one or another of these testimonies when I can, then
think about it, the ones of these refusers who miss His timing, and go to hell always leave me pleading with
God to walk in His timing at all times.
Because it is like Paul says in the KJV, “…lest I myself become a castaway.” I tried very hard to send you
another letter last night, absolutely would not send so I erased it. Then I thought to try again so we will see
if this one goes. Do have a nice day if you can in that incarceration hole of hell called NYC, love and prayers,
General Deborah
P.S. have just now tried to send this one three times, no go, will keep on trying in a while.
Dear General Deborah,
I would love to get the replacement copies of the Women in Ministry literature (I only had three books, but I think that in the third book, there was a note that a fourth one was next. I am not sure). I apologize profusely for the confusion with the box not getting to me. Brooklyn is notorious for extremely poor postal service. I was speaking to the man in the mail room today about the problem I had with my box being lost, and he said that that always happens, even when they send mail there certified that there is no trace of it. It is horrible. But he confirmed that he always had strange problems with the Brooklyn Post offices, and so he doesn’t send things through them anymore.
I guess the first box that you sent me got to me by a miracle then. The envelops get to me for sure because the post man bends then and puts them in my mail box, so that is good. But I would be trilled to have my copies of Women in Ministry. If you ever have to send a box to me, I will try to arrange to have it sent to my work place. I am still observing to see how things operate there because I do not want people to be too suspicious of who I am sending mail to and receiving mail from. I just do not want them to know where I will be when Operation Evacuation is complete. So I am observing still, but praise God! I got those boxes sent to you today for free via fedex! I am so excited; I just hope that I can sleep tonight! I always get so very excited whenever God does these kinds of things. What a wonder! I love it!
Anyway, I do not want to keep you awake with my emails because you need your rest. I am truly looking forward to hearing the good news about Beautiful. You all sleep well, and I pray that you all have a productive day tomorrow labouring for the Lord.
Lots of love,
Jamie
On Fri, Apr 12, 2013 at 6:23 PM, DG <livingword@aggressivechristianity.net> wrote:
Dear Sister Jamie,
Praise God that you were blessed by the Master today. We will keep an
eye out for the bibles. That is so great that you had a conversation with Beryl and we do
look forward to her writing. Now as for the Women in the Ministry, do you want us to send
you replacement copies? If so let me know and he will try and pack them up for Monday
shipment to you. We decided we are not going to send you boxes as they won’t get to
you apparently.
Thank God that He is so good to us and shows us His abundance and His mercy in so
many ways. I talked with Beautiful today and she is doing well, the Lord is moving in her life, I will tell
you more when I talk to you, maybe Sunday evening. Tomorrow is market day, pray that all goes
according to the Lord’s plan. We are loving you and praying for you, may you continue in the
greatness of our God. Love and prayers, GD